There is a person with whom I hold very dear to my heart. This person has given me such spark, such inspiration in all aspects of life. This person has helped turn me into the person that I am today. This person, even though they will remain nameless, doesn't even know they were the very source for many things in my life. This person, with whom I have never physically interacted with has had such great force, such presence, that I think about her nearly every single day. I once fell in love with this person, and I am afraid, but do not regret, have never fallen out of love. We no longer talk, well at least not nearly as much as we used to. We have kind of grown apart. Distance measured in miles is not the only thing between us. I am grateful though. I am grateful for all blessings that surround her daily life. I am grateful she has found love once again. I am grateful she is living her dream. I am eternally grateful she is getting all she deserves in this life. With all of the wonderful things that have come her way, I feel that she has an infinite amount she is still owed. This person I will forever have unconditional love for. I hold so much pride in getting the chance to meet this person, to interact, and to share. Because although we may not still talk, she has given me more than I could ever ask of her and more. She gave me life, love, inspiration, hope, and a list of other things. Even these words I write could never truly explain the impact this angel has on the world.

In this life people like this exist for many people. I feel that everyone has interacted with their own version of the person I speak of. What I have found, in my experience. That even when you love this person with all of your heart, and they can not be yours, pain will come, but in time, if you allow it. You can let go of that need to have that person. In time you can realize that you do not need to possess, or call your own to truly love someone. I have gone through the stage of mourning the loss of such a relationship, I have cried, and pleaded, and wished to the source of all things to make my greatest desire come true. But the source has showed me that the demand I was yearning for was very much an illusion. Source has shown me that knowing she exists, and will continue to exist. Living the wonderful life she has. Learning this has allowed me to grow and experience, learn, create, and live. Its thinking back about this person that I must say again, the words written above do no justice in explaining this person or the impact they have had on this life of mine, and she will continue to remain nameless, but if this very person somehow reads this post, and realizes it is about her the following words are especially for you.

Thank you for all that you have done, haven't done, and what you will do in the future, because all that you are, all that you think, feel, say, and do will always be ever so important, because they come from you, and you are the source of such great goodness, love and inspiration. I love you, and I always will, because you are, and you will always continue, to be you.


I have to say that before watching this video I had no idea who This person was or what he was responsible for. After watching this however I am eternally grateful for people like him. In this modern age of gray areas between whats truly just, right, and what can be deemed as criminal or illegal. I feel we must all take a step back and truly realize the world for what it is. At an age where all information is said to be at your fingertips why do we still depend on a small group of people to make decisions and laws for us? I feel that in this modern age this method is not only outdated, impractical, unjust, unfair, and down right inhumane. With modern technology today and the access that we all have to it why do we not have a better system? The United States was formed with far less of a population that it has today, but the founding fathers would be ever so ashamed at our blindness to the revolutionary tool that we have today. The internet. The internet is the answer to most of the problems that we have in this country today. Strictly speaking on the unjust laws perspective, the internet would solve the problems in overpopulation in the prison industrial complex,  financial loss, and unfair gain, the internet also gives the opportunity for every person to truly have a voice in how our government functions, where our money goes, and who may be guilty of committing a crime. The United States was never intended to be a democracy, No, in the constitution and the bill of rights it states this country is governed by the method of a Republic. I however am not purely against Democracy, however I do have a problem with how it is being carried out today. We no longer need, or desire an indirect democracy, With the internet and the widespread of media we now have the power to be a direct democracy without any ruling class, without a president, and without any representatives. All civilians have some form of access to a television set, a computer, a cell phone, or other network related device where their opinion on a law can be counted, observed and enacted. By having this form of direct democracy we all have a voice, we all have a vote, and in the pure spirit of democracy, the true spirit, and voice of the majority will be heard. There is no need for central and political leaders to tell us what will be done in our country anymore. We no longer need judges to decide the fate of someone being accused of a crime, and as the constitution allows, each person will be tried by a jury of their peers by allowing everyone to be educated on the suppose law that was broken to vote on how the persons sentence, if any would be carried out. This ability would render useless the mainstream medias monopoly on the mass populations opinions, by giving each citizen unfiltered access to their countries affairs, not only does the individual gain more strength and knowledge but the country itself, with all standing as one, the strength a real country would have. When all is one, none is lost.
this documentary on crows is super interesting! i never knew how intelligent they are!
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www.strlightsunst.wix.com/yellowbirdbooks


Sometimes all thats needed is a reminder of how things can be so simple. It's one thing to have high hopes and it's another living off of them. Sometimes you have to step back and look at things for what they are, more often than not they are beautiful. There's beauty in everything if you look at it at the right angle. I come to a place often where I find myself heartbroken, discouraged, and sometimes let down. It is times like these where you have to change your perspective to realize that all of the things in life have some form of lesson to teach. Heartbreak especially seems to be one of those lessons that not only hurts the most, but also makes you grow so much stronger. I have not gone through heartbreak in a long time, but I feel as though I am feeling some residual effects of my past. They always have a lesson to teach, a strength to gain, a heart to be warmed, and motivation when there was none. I feel very motivated now, and the song above is one on my list that reminds me of some things I hold dear in this life. Even moments of silent loneliness can be filled with such joy, love, motivation, and creativity.
The name YellowBird Books comes from a few different events and feelings that I have had in my life. The Term itself is derived from a Bright Eyes album where the symbolism of a Yellowbird is found throughout. This Album titled "I'm wide awake it's morning" has been throughout my life and to this day a very important album to me. Throughout the album I find myself relating, or being able to live out a previous memory that I once had with old friends, old lovers, good events, heart break, and heart warming. This is one meaning behind the name. This is where I find my inspiration. This symbol of a yellow bird has played a theme through out my life. To me, the primary symbol behind the Yellowbird, is finding love. Now the very word love could mean many things. It is finding love in another, finding love in myself, finding love in what I do, and finding love in everything. This I feel is and always will be a constant theme in my life, and sure know it will be. For finding love is my primary motivator. I named my journals YellowBird Books because I want everyone who interacts with me and my work to find love in all that they encounter. This feeling of love is what brought the very designs so far to come to be. And like love itself, it will continue to grow, it will continue to break, and continue to heal, learn, and remake itself. Its the hearts that we embrace and influence that creates the stories of our lives. The books are blank with hopes that they will be filled with all of these things and more.



So it has been quite a great week! I am getting great progress with my kickstarter! It has only been a few days an I am already 20% to achieving my goal with about three weeks left to go! I sure do hope things progress and continue to move as fast as they are. I just updated the page with a new reward and a picture of the coasters that I am offering. If anyone is interested please feel free to stop by the page and support me if you can!

Thank you!

Kickstarter Page
It has been quite a long time since i have posted on this blog! Sorry for the inactivity! I have been on a sort of Hiatus. I had alot of personal things going on and I was in search of my center again. I am happy to say that I am so incredibly close! Not completely there yet but it will come! With my hiatus I also closed my Etsy shop and quit making books for some time. It wasn't until recently where I have found my motivation and desire to create things again. I am so happy to be back to my creative side again. I feel that i needed the time to grow, and that I did! Alot of things changed in my life since my last post. I have come to different ideas, and projects that i will continue to work on for the next few months. Currently I am starting back up my journals, and I have branched out into different things. I will also be offering jewelry, wood coasters, and wooden crochet hooks for the time being. In order to try and meet my goals i have created a kickstarter for journey ahead to try and jumpstart my goals. I am also working on starting a podcast with a friend of mine. Both things will progress in the very near future. I would love for you guys to check out my kickstarter and pledge if you can. I am offering some great rewards for all of you who wish to pledge towards my dreams!

 Thank you so much for your time you guys! here is a link to my kickstarter!

YellowBird Books Kickstarter